Mandadawn's Blog

Thoughts

August 25, 2009 at 3:43 am (Uncategorized) (Life, Love, Self)

   One day you will turn around and I will be gone.   

   Over the hills and far away,   You will see my shadow reflected on your past and the blankness in your future where I should have been. You can turn and call, look under the bushes if you like, but i will be far ahead wrapped up in my own life. You will never know untill it’s too late too late to turn back the clock to change the future, too late for you but not too soon for me. My happiness and fullfillment lies ahead on a path you do not wish to take.

 I am moving on, forging ahead, letting go of the ties that bind me, they were only bound to a hope, a wish, a fantasy. It is now time for reality. I will miss you on that day I believe I will feel your pain even if I’m far away, but I will not rush to your side, because by then there will be someone at mine.

All I wish for is the sheltering strength of  loving arms, light shining forth from the eyes that look into mine, the tenderness of a casual kiss, the passion that is found in the dead of night.

In return I will give my strength, my light, my tenderness, my passion, my heart.

I may be asking for too much, but I am asking for no less than what I deserve I am a fabulous creature of the gods and nature. I am the best thing I can offer to anyone. I AM love, I AM peace, I am the calm nougaty center of the universe.

I will shed my tears, this I know, I cannot lie to myself and say I won’t, I am a creature of strong emotions but also of strength and patiance. I will love freely, loving life in all it’s forms. I connot close off my heart I have tried, so I will open it wide and endure the pain that is inevitable. 

I am me and I will learn to love myself as well as I can love anything, better even than I have loved you.